It's interesting that they have returned. I'm almost 30 years old and yet they close at the back of my mind every so often. In those times I almost feel as if I'm coming unstuck from reality. There is this weird, "tearing" feeling where I swear I can feel the stands that bind me here stretch. Melodramatic, sure, but that's what it feels like in those moments. I know sleep deprivation can cause unrest and even paranoia which seems to feed into a deeper terror each time. Like I hear things. Thumping, the front door being opened, shadows moving all these things I hear or see in my mind. It's a duality though. I know they aren't real, but the feel to real.
This helps though. Reminds me of center. Of where I am nominally.
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