So it has come to this

We are kicking her out. It's just been too much. I mean, she hasn't done anything really bad but there are clear signs of us simply being abused and no intentions of paying back our generosity. Now we don't expect an even pay out, that's the point of charging a modified rent, but we do expect at least some gratitude or reciprocity. I mean, she has only cleaned the dishes twice, had never made dinner, had ruined more than a few weekends, has told me she was to tired to hangout but snuck away to be with others (she could at least tell me and not lie), and worst of all is that has asked us to be more honest but has literally done the opposite of what we asked.

This whole thing has just been eye opening. She's not necessary a bad person, just incredibly selfish, but she is a bad friend to us. Me especially. We she had to escape her mom, she had nothing, nowhere to go. I convinced bear to let her move here because I knew the shitty situation she was in. I then bought her a bed to sleep on and helped move all her stuff with my mom's truck. That is only a small portion of shit I have done for her but whenever I asked to do something with her; like the movies, casino, bar, whatever, it was always no I'm too tired. Then, I'd see snaps of her hanging out, partying with other people. A few times, whatever, but when I told her it hurt me because I thought we were "best homies" but she ditches me literally every time, she then texts one guy drunk to try and set up a date but explicitly told him not to tell me. WTF?! I don't care she had other friends. I just care that I told her our friendship was on the rocks cuz of the shit she has pulled and literally less than 24 hours later she does the exact thing I told her upset me.

I'm just done. We are done. We need a friend who believes in give and take. Who doesn't get so drunk every time we go out that we are stuck babysitting her. Or so high that the at the concert that she pushed us to she's basically slobbering on herself. Or has literally ran off from us when we go out to try and have sex with some random dude . These aren't inheritly wrong but it's not the kind of friend we want. We feel like she has only used us as safe house and as a source of free food and activities. There has been no affection. No little gestures on her side to show she cares. Hell, when I was torn up because one of my best friends died suddenly all I got was an awesome from her but when her friend and her had a fight we had to take her out for a whole week cuz she was depressed...

It's just been too much and we would be happier with either no one living with us or if we had to, a much better friend, or at least someone who pays full rent.

Well, its gonna be awkward till she gone but it's time for us to be selfish in this relationship.

Bojack

Sometimes way too hard of a show to watch. I've never been that depressed but there are instances I relate to. Mostly about friendships. Also, a name popped up literally just now that is hilariously awful! Just good stuff.

Been missing you

Everytime I check my Facebook memories I see you commenting on my stuff. You always knew had to make me laugh, how to reference shit that made me chuckle, and just general made my day better. It sucks you're gone dude. There are days where I just dwell on you not being around and it hurts. I only write this here cuz I'm too timid to do it on Facebook, I know your mom would appreciate it. 

Gotta write more

I have been neglecting this bad boy recently. Need to step it up. First, I need to finish those reviews for John Dies at the end and Slaughter house. Also, have had some interesting developments on the home life front. Got sick drunk for the first time, highly overrated and don't recommend in the slightest, got into some fights and other such goodies. Also some weird questions from a weird person.

Slaughter house 5

Started it yesterday, will update once finished
Just finished, review to come later

Never get over it

The company I work for has just been so fundamentally awesome for me and I don't think I will ever get over it. Over the holiday break, I hung out with my boss at our house. There we were talking about graduation and me going full time. During this chat he drops the bombshell on me that what I'm making now is only HALF of what I would be once I stop being a junior engineer....Fucking half! That's outrageous! It is very motivating to get done with school when I hear that I will be making double what I make now once I graduate. I couldn't be more thankful that I landed this job and it really is all thanks to my former bully.

That episode was a little too real

A little close to home. If you know what I mean. Of course you don't. I'm intentionally being ambiguous and not giving context but let me just say, a little too real

2017

Getting started and moving up. 10 years since high school and now it's time to get the shit together.

Feel like I'm haunted

Sometime I feel like I'm haunted. Like a presence is around me. Woke myself up about an hour ago growing and telling burr and l to run away from me, in a dream, because I was possessed or something. Now, hear my name as I try and go back to snooze. Hopefully this casper is Christina Ricci and I get to keep her. She's pretty cute.